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Friday, October 31, 2008

System of Justice

This was a really hard week.  Many folks know I tried a case this week that dated back to June of 2007.  This case was one of the first I got as a Superior Court prosecutor that involved debilitating injury to the victim as well as clear gang involvement.

This case, as the months went by, came to be known to those around the courthouse (and my house) as simply "Waffle House", the location of the shooting.  This was one of those once in a lifetime cases from an evidence standpoint.  The police were able to recover amateur video shot at the Waffle House that night that captured the perpetrators flashing gang signs and guns minutes before capturing the sound of multiple gunshots and the ensuing mayhem of hundreds of 3AM revelers fleeing the parking lot.  The video captures the gritty reality of "urban" America, a shadow world most fortunate office workers and suburbanites would think only exists in Los Angeles.

Months and months of preparation went into this case.  We had ballistics tests done, interviewed witnesses numerous times, had the SBI do some "cutting edge" scientific analysis (that, to no fault of SBI, ended up being worthless).  We grew really close to our victim and his family, who are good Christian people.

To explain the case a little further, we had two shooters that we knew of.  One defendant confessed to firing a gun, but implicated another in hitting the victim.  Another defendant also implicated the second shooter, as did another witness.  One bullet lodged in the victim's spine.  SBI analyzed X-rays we had done of the victim's spine and gave us an opinion that the bullet fragments were larger caliber than the bullet fired by the first shooter. The casing from the gun fired by the first shooter presented directly in front of a window of the Waffle House which had been shot, but we were unable to recover the projectile from the roof of the restaurant.   Nonetheless, it appeared his bullet missed and went into the ether above the Waffle House.

After months of waiting, we had our answer, as best we could-the second shooter paralyzed our victim.  We still had no gun and no casings from the second shooter, but we had two co-defendants and a witness putting him there with a revolver (which wouldn't leave casings) and shooting the victim.  We had the second shooter flashing gang signs on the amateur video mere minutes before the shooting.  We cut deals with co-defendants to plead to lesser charges and testify.  We lined up and got ready to roll against the second shooter.

And then things fell apart.  Slowly.  First, one co-defendant was jumped in jail and "burned out" of the Bloods for "snitching".  He later decided not to testify, and for good measure, recanted his original statement and made up some B.S. to exonerate the second shooter (who ranks higher in the gang).  Our first shooter (who also pled) changed his story as well, indicating he never saw the second shooter fire.  Our SBI expert discovered the radiologist did not scale the X-rays such that an accurate measurement could be made and the previous opinion regarding the caliber of ammo in the victim's spine was now meaningless.

We limped into trial this week, still hoping for the best, hoping to deliver for our victim and his family.  Monday saw us hit with a surprise alibi witness (in the form of the defendant's girlfriend) who concealed for over a year the fact that the defendant was with her and couldn't have shot anyone.  Two days before trial, she shares this information with the defendant's lawyer and investigator, after keeping it from the police.  Yeah, right.  

Our first shooter was inadvertently housed in the jail briefly with the defendant, who called him out for being a snitch in front of other Bloods.  Our last credible witness, who lived out of town, was nowhere to be found when our investigator showed up to pick him up for court.  It took half a day and an Order for Arrest to locate him.  

Finally, though, things came together.  The judge let us fill the jury in on the defendant's gang involvement.  Our first shooter testified to the defendant's intimidation tactics.  Our witness from out of town (a brave, brave young man) looked the jurors and the defendant in the eye and pointed him out as the shooter.  The alibi witness didn't testify, but the defendant sacrificed his last argument to the jury by calling a convicted felon to lie on the stand for his client.  The trial went four days and we ended strong, despite our shortcomings on evidence.  Everyone in the courtroom from the bailiffs to the judge to the clerk went from being completely skeptical of our chances to thinking we had the defendant cold.

Everyone but the jury, however.  The 12 Wake County citizens got the case at 2:50 PM yesterday.  By 4PM, they sent a note out that they were deadlocked.  A bailiff posted by the jury door shook his head.  It didn't sound good in there.  I tried to relax.  It is not unusual for juries to have amazing swings in hours of deliberation.  This jury had only been at it for about an hour, it was too early to panic.  The judge brought them in, instructed them to go back and try to work it out.  We prepped our victim for the worst but hoped for the best.  

Then, right at 5PM, the knock came: "We have a verdict".  The jurors filed in.  The usually impressively stoic judge opened the verdict package, and his eyes widened in disbelief.  I lowered my head, knowing what was next.  The clerk began to read the verdicts.  Her voice cracked with each "Not Guilty".  The throng of gang members there to support the defendant (and intimidate witnesses and jurors) began cheering like it was high school graduation.  The judge quickly silenced them.  

The jury was discharged and fled like rats from a sinking ship.  None waited in the lobby to so much as express an opinion, mutter a comment to our victim in his wheelchair.  Stunned, my colleague and I staggered past the bar into the gallery to talk to the victim, his family and their civil attorney.  My female colleague and my legal assistant were already in tears.  As soon as I saw the victim, he smiled, shook my hand thanked me for all my hard work.  I couldn't hold back then, just like I can't hold back now.  

I failed, I thought.  I failed the victim, I failed the citizens of this city, county and state.  I failed civilized America and let street thugs manipulate our system.  A murderous thug was being released and it was my fault.  And here, my victim and his family, telling us we did all we could and they were glad we fought for them.  My victim, who will never again chase his daughter on his own two feet, smiled and told me it was going to be alright.

Then, after the shock wore off, I realized my colleague and I did do just about everything we could.  We tried as hard as we could to get people who think gun violence is just another part of life and that "snitching" (ie telling the truth) is a cardinal sin to convince a jury to convict a madman.

I realized it wasn't me who failed, it was the jury.  The jury who took a mere two hours to deliberate on four days of evidence.  The jury who had two holdouts who gave up and drowned rather than fight the tide. The jury who came back at 5PM Thursday so they wouldn't have to come back on a Friday.  They jury who didn't have the decency to stay and explain or discuss their decision.  

At many points throughout the trial, I was prepared to lose.  Had the jury deliberated long and hard, I would have had an easier time accepting an acquittal.  To reach a conclusion on such a case in a mere 2 hours means their minds were made up going in.  

My faith was restored a little bit today, when the foreman of the jury gave me a call.  I could tell from his voice he was sick over the verdict.  His voice matched my mood, I told him.  He said he "knew in his gut" the defendant was guilty.  He and another man held out, but there was no swaying the other 10.  He complimented me and my colleague, expressed dismay as I told him of the evidence we couldn't present and the defendant's penchant for gun violence when he is allowed out and about.  I ultimately felt better, though I imagine he didn't.

But, after all, he won't see this again.  Sure, if he watches the news, he may hear a terrible story of a house being shot up in a gang retaliation.  Of a child being murdered.  I hope he doesn't, but if he does, he can change the channel.  That case will land on my desk, or that of a colleague.  And if I don't get that case, I will get the next one, or the one after that.  The fruit of gang violence floods our office with files like children's letters at the North Pole. 

 I am disappointed that 12 citizens let the system get jobbed by a high school dropout who would kill an average citizen to gain status in a gang.  Who used jail telephones and mail to intimidate witnesses and call out hits on snitches.

I don't want to get into the how and why or assignment of fault about why gangs are so prevalent in certain communities.  Some would argue more fathers would be around to raise these young men right if the racist police and the racist system wouldn't persist in locking them up.  Others would counter that it is up to the community to break the legacy of crime and the lure of easy money through drugs and violence.  Whatever the reason behind the gang epidemic, it is growing, and the distrust, disdain and outright hatred of the perceived system of white authority grows along with it.  

The problem with the gang epidemic is it largely preys on its own community.  So, folks who already distrust authority are victimized by the gangs, refuse to come forward for fear of retaliation, and end up in a state of terror and distrust for a system that can do nothing.  If ordinary citizens on juries can't speak for those folks, our entire system will someday crumble and give way to anarchy.

I apologize for the length of this rambling post.  I write this as catharsis-to get it out once and for all and move on.  We will sentence 3 of the 4 original defendants next week to prison.  This one will, for now, be the one that got away.  Batting .750 ain't bad, and I guess it's good that I care.  The alternative could be walking around with eyes that, as the jury foreman stated in describing the defendant, indicated "no one was home in there".  There's a Halloween thought for you...

Anyway, thanks for being there to hear me vent.  Sometimes the pressure adds up and my job is pretty tough, but I am glad and feel privileged I get to fight this fight everyday, just like my dad did before me.   I want everyone to know that.    

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Sleeping Beauties!


Saturday afternoon, well before we decided to attend the Red/White game at Reynolds that evening, my family decided to nap.  So, I decided to document their slumber...  then, I decided to have a glass of wine!  It was a yummy afternoon!!!

  
Mags and I love the Moby!

Friday, October 24, 2008

Kayden's Birthday Party

First, we have to thank the Langworthy's for planning such a super fun birthday party last Sunday (Oct. 19 - also Grandma Judy's B-day), and especially for inviting the Wilson's to attend.  We had so much fun at Hill Ridge Farms!  



I'm experimenting a little, but here is a link to our pictures of the event on our mobileme account...

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Nostalgia

Last Saturday, the family headed to Reynolds Coliseum to watch an NC State basketball practice. Apparently, the #1 and #2 recruits were there, so it was a pretty big deal for die hard fans like Jimmy Wilson.  (I know I probably screwed that up, too.  Maybe #1 in the nation and #2 in the state???  I guess I should listen better.)

We haven't been inside Reynolds since we were students and State played its final game against Carolina before moving to the ESA now RBC Center.  We camped out for those tickets, or I should say Jimmy camped out for those tickets.  The Brent Rd. roommates had a party that weekend with keg beer.  There was so much beer left over, and of course no one ever wants it to go to waste, so in the absence of jugs, we put the beer in a bunch of tupperware containers. BRILLIANT!  I remember heading out there one morning to check on the boys and smelling stale beer and their sweaty nastiness.  I think Kerri was visiting that weekend, but I think we camped out to get those tickets for Andy and Steve.  It's coming back to me...  it was standing room only, and at one point Jimmy jumped up while cheering and broke a light fixture with his head!

Those were the good ole days.  But, back to reality...

Katie and Maggie were on their best behaviors during practice (we stayed for one hour).  Katie was so excited to cheer for State.  She was even more excited to wear big girl underwear and keep them dry during practice, "No pee pee at basketball game."  She kept them dry, too. Hooray!

After the practice, we headed over to the student bookstore to find new shirts to sport.  It was pretty chaotic, so we gave up rather quickly.  Then, we drove through campus on our way to Cloo's for chili hot dog lunch, another old staple we indulged in while we were students.  Driving through campus it hit me, we're old.  I think I even said something like, "Holy crap, it's been 10 years since we were in college.  Now look at us, we have two kids in the back seat and I'm lactating."

Time flies when you're having fun.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Our First Slumber Party.

Two nights ago Katie woke up around midnight coughing and crying with a fever of 102.  She was inconsolable.  Her voice was hoarse and her breathing was quite labored.  I was so nervous that we almost headed straight to the emergency room.  After some Motrin and a long hour later, her fever came down significantly, but the cough seemed to get worse.

I took her to the doctor on Monday and was told she has croup.  "The first three nights are the worst," says Dr. Durand-Smith.  So far, she's absolutely right!  Katie, Maggie and I camped out in the family room the last two nights so that none of us would have to root around in the dark to find one another.  I guess you could say this was our first all girl slumber party, only not necessarily the fun kind of slumber party.  (The second all girl slumber party was crashed by daddy around midnight out of desperate necessity!)

We played musical beds, watched cartoons, and snuggled.  

It hasn't been easy keeping Katie away from Maggie.  It's wonderful that she loves her new sister, but in times like these it's hard to convince an almost three year old that germs spread easily and newborns are quite susceptible.  I guess I'm protecting Maggie as best I can with the damn breast milk, but did I mention that I hate breastfeeding?

I'm tired.  I hope my house is germ free by next week or else...!

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Blast from the Past

So, my "vacation" of a week of sick leave (for being sick) followed by 2 days (for being a new dad) is coming to an end.  And what better way to re-immerse myself in the doggone real world than to watch a presidential debate.  I'm being sarcastic.  

What once promised (to me at least) to be a monumentally important campaign, featuring two equally competent candidates, has taken true form as a sophomoric mud-slinging expression of generalities.  

40 minutes in and Karla and I were joking about making a drinking game out of every mention of "my friends", "deficit", "tax breaks", "pork barrel", "tax credit", "small business" etc.  I think we would have done it, too, if Karla weren't still on pain pills and I didn't have the remnants of a head cold.

I've always been a registered Democrat and Karla a Republican.  But I think we both have issues with our respective "parties" that keep us open to alternatives.

So, I was excited and really wanted to hear either McCain or Obama convince me to vote for one or the other.  Here we have two candidates who don't fit the mold. Obama, a chance at being a great unifier, a beacon of hope and compromise.  McCain, a war hero and a non-Republican Republican who has crossed party lines to get things done for years. Man, you'd think 8 years of W would make this campaign like shooting fish in a barrel for either one of these guys, but all I have heard is "blah blah blah" and "my (senate record) is bigger than yours".  

Anyway, maybe it's just exhaustion and not wanting to go back to work, or maybe it's John McCain's smugness, Barack Obama's sarcastic condescending smile, or the endless stream of campaign ads, but color me officially cynical.  But why should I digress when the writers of the Simpsons said it all, years ago.  As true today as it was when it was written...  Enjoy...


Sunday, October 5, 2008

Saturday, October 4, 2008

Friday, October 3, 2008

Welcome, Magpie

I got the call in court at about 12:15.  Karla's distressed voice asking if I could scoot from work and pick up Katie from preschool.  Mom was at the doctor's with Karla, and they wanted to do some follow up ultrasound because our little pending daughter was not exhibiting very spirited respiratory action.  The last thing I heard was something about them admitting Karla to the hospital and inducing labor...

When the call came, I had just finished two pleas and an arraignment, and I hastily ducked into a conference room to grab the phone.  When I emerged, the judge and my legal assistant both asked what "the word" was, knowing the general situation.  I said Karla said something about respiratory distress and admitting her, and before I could finish my thought or even process the words coming out of my mouth, the judge (in all his wisdom) uttered the wise pronouncement: "Go!"

Like something maybe God would've said to Moses in the Old Testament.  As in, do not ask, but do as I have told ye.  In so many words, get your ass in gear and get to your wife, Wilson. Why was I standing there talking to them????

So, here I was again, for the second time in 3 years nearly sprinting down Salisbury Street to my free parking spot 5 blocks from the courthouse (I could have paid to park across the street), ripping off tie and jacket in my haste.  

I flew down the road to Katie's preschool.  When I peeked through the window of Katie's class, there she was, arms out, knees bent doing the Katie Dance to "I've Been Workin' on the Railroad".  Again, why was I pausing to take this in? I stood riveted to the spot, watching my oldest (man, that sounds weird) have a blast on her own, without Karla or myself there to instigate or encourage.

Finally, as if God himself had prodded my sorry behind again, I sheepishly opened the door and stuck my torso inside the classroom.  Still, I was being bashful.  "Um, I hate to interrupt your terribly important class of 2 year olds dancing, but I have to grab my child and head to the hospital BECAUSE MY WIFE IS HAVING A BABY".  Finally, the teachers, having more sense than me, saw the dazed look in my eye and, with their womanly wisdom, must've gathered that the idiot before them needed to recollect his daughter because his darling wife was about to birth another.  

They asked, I mustered an answer in the affirmative, they wished good luck, and I finally got Katie to the car.  Not before we paused again as Katie pointed out her bird drawing pinned to the wall.  I must say the execution was a little raw, but I liked the blue and red color scheme.  

Finally on my way, I was once again detoured by the realization that the car I was driving, that my mom would have to drive home, was nearly out of gas.  Several bone dry gas stations later, I was (at last!) in sight of the hospital.  Katie was handed over to Mom smoothly, and I went to be with Karla.

After a horrific hour in a curtained triage (involving one clumsy nurse who damn near drove a needle through Karla's forearm and an awkward and emotional unintentional eavesdropping on a young hispanic couple experiencing a scary pre-term labor) the unthinkable happened: everything went PERFECTLY.  That's right.

Karla was started on pitocin to kickstart contractions, the doctor broke her water, her epidural was hooked up quickly and worked perfectly, she dilated fully and by 7:45 PM she was pushing.  7 pushes in, baby Maggie was here, weighing in at 7 lbs, 7 oz.  Lucky 7s I suppose...

A pregnancy through the Dad's eyes, I am sure, is quite different than the view of the mother. There are so many moments of anxiety.  Of utter helplessness.  A false positive test leading to genetic counseling for the possibility of Down's Syndrome, concerns about respiratory inactivity.  What on earth could I possibly do, but stand by and hold Karla's hand through it all?  So much joy and hope placed in a pregnancy, a little ball of cells that grows into life.  A life we are tasked with, and gladly so, shepherding through the early years of development.  Such a fragile thing, such a difficult path fraught with peril and heartache for so many.

I was blessed  to see my second daughter arrive today in all the elegance and effortless grace of the unfolding of a flower as it blooms.  Margaret Josephine uncurled her limbs without so much as a faint whimper to let us know she was alive.  She immediately took to Karla without fuss, fed to her heart's content, and fell into a purring slumber in dad's arms.

The name Margaret Josephine is a family name.  Margaret is a common name in my father's family tree.  Josephine is the name of my mother's mother.  Beyond that significance, the roots of the words hold true.  Margaret is Greek for "pearl", and Josephine Hebrew for "He (the Lord) shall provide".

The Lord truly has blessed us again.  For all the things that could have gone wrong, all the doubts and uncertainties that cloud our hearts and minds as we deal with life's great expectations and responsibilities, God truly has miraculous ways of reminding us of His scheme of life and love.  I saw it firsthand in the ease and perfection in His plan for the birth of my daughter, in the peace I saw in her angelic face.  I am sure I can speak for Karla in saying today we are grateful and overjoyed to have our own little "pearl" on loan from above, and thankful we have friends and family with whom to share our joy.