Illnesses, lots of loss (way too much loss!), and other personal struggles... It's like there is a black cloud hovering over my head. I understand that concept of the Law of Attraction, but it seems like even when I'm trying to be positive, the negative prevails.
I really haven't wanted to write in the blog for a while. In fact, I still don't. So this will be short.
My dad died on April 13, four days shy of his 72nd birthday. We buried him on this birthday. Yesterday was the one month anniversary of his passing. How did I handle it? A panic attack at 3:45 am.
The church I call myself a member of turned me down on Mother's Day, after the 9:30 AM mass, for a June baptism for Maggie because I don't attend regularly. I was severely offended by the manner in which I was received, and I am now struggling with the emotions that surround this alienation from a church - of all things.
Now is when I need church the most.
I'm feeling a little lost.
